Plans: Past and Present
I want to thank you for your patience as it has taken me so long to update my blog. The last couple months have been hectic. There are two things I’ve been struggling with. Maybe more. Probably more. My first struggle is this-- keeping my heart where my feet are. I long to be overseas and serve the Lord. I know there is a reason why I can’t just go ahead serve somewhere overseas, but I am passionate about mission work.I love waking up and knowing my sole purpose is to share the Gospel with someone. Now that is the top thing about which I am passionate...Jesus. I love Him so incredibly much. He is so good to me even when I don’t deserve it. It’s a lot harder to wake up here and have that mindset that your purpose for the day is to share the Gospel as many times as the Spirit leads. There are so many distractions that cause us to not wake up without a kingdom focused mindset.
Secondly, I have really been struggling with is my source of adequacy. Even though I know that I should not place my worth in things like my grades, or what people think of me, or even how well I played in a volleyball game, I tend to place my value in my performance. The Lord is continually reminding me that my worth comes from Him. There’s nothing better than knowing that t your worth is defined by a God who loves you so much that He sent His only Son to die for you. It’s just so mind boggling how Someone can love you so immensely despite knowing that you are going to mess up over and over again. A statement that I’ve heard a lot lately is that God’s grace is more significant than your biggest mistake. God continues to be gracious no matter what. How fantastic to know that even when you do mess up, God is always going to forgive you because the blood of Jesus Christ paid your sin debt. . Hallelujah! God is good!.
I am learning to trust God wholeheartedly in the little things and with His plan for my life. I’m a planner. As a kid, I would pack weeks before a trip partially because I was excited, but also because I needed to know that I was prepared.. I’m learning to trust God even when I don’t see the next step in life or the step after that. I’m learning that trusting that His plan for me is so much greater than I could ever imagine. He is faithful through it all.
God is amazing and has astonishing plans for your life. Learning to be patient in this time of waiting on His plan has been a process. One of my favorite songs has a part that voices that even though you may not be able to see the reason for this time in your life, you can know that it is a part of His plan and that He is working. I cling to this promise. His works are wonderful and I know this very well (Psalm 139: 14)
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. -- Jeremiah 29:11 (CSB)
Such is the confidence we have through Christ before God. 5 It is not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God. -- 2 Corinthians 3:4-5 (CSB)
and every proud thing that is raised up against the knowledge of God, and we take every thought captive to obey Christ. -- 2 Corinthians 10:5 (CSB)
Indeed, God is my salvation;I will trust him and not be afraid,for the Lord, the Lord himself,is my strength and my song.He has become my salvation.” -- Isaiah 12:2 (CSB)
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,and your ways are not my ways.”This is the Lord’s declaration.9 “For as heaven is higher than earth,so my ways are higher than your ways,and my thoughts than your thoughts. -- Isaiah 55:8-9 (CSB)