Tear Filled Joy
Updated: Aug 22, 2019
Over the last couple of months, I have had several conversations about Jesus’ death and resurrection on the cross with fellow believers in which we talked about how amazing it is that God loves us that much. Between talking about it and reading about it in the Bible and in books, I have fallen more in love with Jesus. It brought tears to my eyes. Most of the time, it blows my mind that Jesus would willingly take the cross for me. He is perfect and didn’t deserve the gruesome death on the cross at all.
I am a sinner and fully deserve the penalty of death. I’m gonna say that again because I think I (and maybe you do this too) sometimes try to convince myself that I am perfect or good enough, all the while not feeling good enough for anyone. I am a sinner and fully deserve the penalty of death. I can’t do it on my own. You can’t do it on your own. It’s not a matter of “am I good enough?” because we - by ourselves - will never be “good” enough. It took Jesus being arrested, beaten, scourged, spat upon, mocked, and then dying to pay the price of our sin. But His story doesn’t end in death. It gets even better with the fact that He rose from the grave. He defeated death. Depending on the day, this either gives me the chills or makes me want to cry. Other than Jesus, I don’t know anyone that loves me that much. Despite the fact that I mess up daily, He provides grace upon grace. He is a God of second chances. His love is so immense.
I am forever grateful to Him because I can’t save myself. I can’t do this life without Him. He is the ONLY way to salvation. He is the only way to restoration with the Father. He provides so much peace and joy. I can honestly say that I am glad that I am moved to tears when thinking about Jesus’ death, because—let’s be real—He deserves my all. I am in awe of Him.